I don't know if you've ever had the same feelings as me, at one time or another, but there are times I think to myself, "How did I end up here?" I feel so plain and ordinary and see all these really talented people who love God. The speaker at church tonight was reminding me of how sometimes we can feel that way, and I thought, yes- here I am again.

I have so much growing to do. Learning to trust God, to trust people, to obey God. To give up my wants, my selfishness. My desire to please people. Sometimes I don't want to let go. But then I look at Jesus, and I am convinced again that it is love that will always take to me to the place of real change in my life. Gods love. His awesome, relentless, jealous Love! And He gives grace where I need it.

I worked this weekend on B ward, the ward with the most little kids, and yes, they are adorable, but I realized I do not have as much patience as I previously thought. Some of these energetic kids have been couped up on a hospital ship a little too long, if you know what I mean. The toddlers are getting bored with the toys... Some of my teacher friends need to come and entertain them with creative crafts. :)

I will be working nights for the next 3 days. We will be doing a lot of surgeries this week. If you would, please pray that all will go well, patients will heal quickly and we would be able to encourage each one. And that God will have his way in me.

I am craving Bubble Tea... Peach black with passion fruit jelly and tapioca!

Thank you for reading my blog today! :)

Song Lyrics that encouraged me:

Cannot Hide my Love (don't know who its by)

Holy Spirit
I need your touch,
More than ever before,
O Jesus, I need your love
And I'm desperate for more

When I feel your presence all around me
When I feel your arms as they surround me

I cannot hide my love
I cannot hide my love
My feet will have to dance
I cannot hide my love
I cannot hide my love
My heart will have to sing

I am so in love with
I am so in love with
I am so in love with
You my Lord, my God